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How are you my dear reader? It’s been a while. Since most of my entries start with an apology, I’ve decided to continue the trend and start all my entries with an apology. I again apologize for not posting anything in a while. I hardly even visit this blog anymore. I’ve been busy and I’ve been having personal problems. But because I love you my dear reader, I posted this half-assed attempt at an entry. I’ve only given myself a few mins to write this entry and I really have nothing to blog about so bear with me on this one. If this is your first time to visit this blog, please check out my other articles. I actually have more interesting entries.

How many seconds would it take to type “I’m busy”? I timed myself. Approximately 1.5 seconds, I think ..hard to approximate point-something seconds when you don’t have a timer.

I was watching a trailer of battlestar galactica season 4 just a while ago. I was having multiple geekgasms and a minor asthma attack when an epiphany hit me… I am a loser. I’ve finally discovered the root of all my problems. I’m a geeky, whiny, loser-wimp with no self esteem, no social skills and no sense of self respect… and I have undescended balls (figuratively speaking of course) And that is why I can’t get the girls that I want.

They may say otherwise but what women really want, subconsciously, are badass, emotionally abusive guys… and that’s what I have to be. I’m getting myself an image overhaul. Good bye geeky, caring jaywalker. Hello emotionally abusive, badass jaywalker!

So there’s this girl that I wanted really really really badly. So even if she treated me like crap, I stuck by her for quite a long time like a loyal little dog working for little treats. I did selfless favors for her, I was willing to ignore logic for her, (an unforgivable offence for an atheist) I purposely lost my taste for other women... but it was all for naught as she was always indifferent. Thanks to battlestar galactica season 4, I’ve finally realized that it’s a losing game. Why? Because I’m not a badass, emotionally abusive guy of course! I think I’ve already told you tha(Read More)

This video is about the implications of determinism on free will and why prediction is problematic when awareness is present

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I don’t know if this would still amount to anything. The last last entry was actually supposed to be some sort of apology but in the process of writing it, it somehow morphed into this very obnoxious attempt at ego stroking. Truth is I was wrong. I was presumptuous. Now that I have my wits about me again, I can see the whole picture more clearly

I’ve created such a mess and I don’t quite know how to fix it or if I can fix it. I skipped all my appointments today. I’m just really embarrassed to be myself right now. I just wanna sink into my bed and disappear completely.

I’m not even sure how many people I’ve offended today. It won’t be(Read More)

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“if I’m gonna end up an average guy, I’d rather die now.” I remember saying that a few years ago. Seems a bit overdramatic now but I remember saying that with conviction. Spoiled kids usually end up with blown up egos and my ego was quite inflated. I could never see myself as average.

My inclinations varied from time to time but I was convinced that there were only two viable options for me. Either I was going to excel in a purely intellectual/scientific pursuit or I was going to be a filthy rich businessman.
I wanted to be a scientist when I was very young. Not just any scientist of course. I wanted to be the next Einstein. When I realized that the science industry in the Philippines was practically nonexistent, I was left with only one option.

I never really had much accomplishments as a kid and that continued throughout much of my academic life. I never liked school. I was an awkward boy. School to me was synonymous to bullies, ridicule and embarrassment. It left me with some intermittent anxiety problems.

Early on I already made a commitment to never be an employee. Part of the reason why I was so confident in making such a commitment was that I knew i had the family business to fall back on. I just needed more businesses and investments for additional income.

I practically flipped a coin when I chose my 1st course and university. Because I knew I was never going to be an employee, I felt like I didn’t need really need college. I just wanted a degree. I spent my college life having LAN orgies, playing counterstrike, starcraft and Diablo 2. Needless to say, my grades were very unremarkable. After spending four years taking that course, I quit and took a second course in another university.

I was still in college when I first decided to take steps towards making something of myself. My academic performance was dragging my self esteem to record lows and I felt like I had to do something drastic lest I kill myself.
I made a roadmap for my life with relatively specific goals and timelines. The original roadmap was like this: I was going to sell cameras and gadgets for a specific amount of time then I was going to start trading used cars (part of the motivation for that was to make a statement. I wanted to buy my own car with my own money at an age when most guys still are entirely financially dependent on their parents.) After I graduate, I planned to invest some money in the family business, I’d be a self made millionaire in my late 20s. I pictured myself entering the real estate market in my mid 30s to early 40s. I was always high on ambition and in my most delirious state I even dreamed of founding a family empire.

One advantage of starting early is that you tend to be more imaginative, optimistic and idealistic when you’re young. People tend to be more practical and less imaginative as they grow older and they tend to avoid risks more. You also have less financial responsibilities when you’re young so it’s easier to take risks

My first baby step came in the form of a Sony TRV68 camcorder. I bought it for 8000 pesos. That was all the money I had at the time. I didn’t make much of a profit from that but it set the ball rolling. The first two months, I made around (Read More)

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I turned the TV on yesterday with the intention of watching some intellectually stimulating shows from JackTV. Instead, I was treated to one of the more entertaining live local news coverage I had seen in a while.

Senator Trillanes walked out of a court hearing, traversed the streets of makati with a bunch of armed men. They marched towards the manila peninsula hotel, commandeered it and called for the people to join them in overthrowing the arroyo administration. The military and the police gave them a deadline to surrender. The deadline came and passed. Swarms of troops started storming the hotel. Gunshots were heard. A tank crashed through the front door of the hotel.
Senator Trillanes seemed really determined so I was expecting it to end in bloodshed. I was sure people were going to be googling pictures of Trillanes’ corpse later in the day But alas, Trillanes and company gave up with hardly a fight

Much to the dismay of the Media personnel who were caught inside the hotel at the time of the incident, they were tied up, rounded up like cattle and forced to ride non-airconditioned buses (the horror) to bicutan, in which they were detained. They were understandably outraged (airconditioned buses would’ve been a more humane option) However, this is a very good tactical move for the military for magdalo soldiers have a reputation of being exceptionally good at subterfuge. A number of them could’ve easily blended in with the media.

The magdalo soldier’s proficiency in disguise is displayed in the picture below in which, if one would look very closely, a magdalo soldier can be seen inconspicuously disguised as a Rastafarian “MAWN”. He doesn’t stand out at all.

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